This past week it finally hit me that this is all happening…like for real. In just a couple of days I’ll be hopping in a plane, on my own, and flying to a tiny island 5,587 miles away from good ole’ Lancaster. So darn crazy.
So many questions filled my mind this week as my life slowed down a bit. Fear of the unknown, fear of idleness, fear of loneliness started to rob me of the joy and excitement I’ve had up until this point.
During this same time, the Lord has been placing in my heart a love for the Psalms. I love how the psalmists are so raw. They pour out their hearts before the Lord, giving Him their anger, frustration, and pain. But what I think is so cool, is that at the end of almost every chapter, the psalmists are brought back to praise.
“Whom have I in heaven but you? And there is nothing on earth that I desire besides you. My flesh and heart may fail, but God is the strength of my heart forever.”
Fear leaves when all of our desires are in the Lord. He has always proven himself faithful, and so if he becomes my greatest desire…
my fear of the unknown is destroyed, because he is constant.
my fear of idleness is gone, because the amount that he is at work in my life is past my knowledge (psalm 71:15)
my fear of loneliness is nonexistent, because he is my ever-present refuge (psalm 62:6)
I pray that you alone would become my greatest desire. I pray that as I go through the mountains and the valleys (because valleys will still come), my gaze would be always fixed on you. I pray that against all hope, I would hope continually, because I know that you, my God, are faithful. I pray that even through the storms I would learn to praise you more and more, because you are always worthy. And Lord, I pray that the things of this world would grow dim in my eyes as I experience more of who you are, more of your goodness and glory. Fill my heart up with you till there’s no room.
Thank you to everyone who has been such an encouragement as I’ve been preparing for Cyprus! I’ve been so blessed to be surrounded by so many supportive friends and family this past week, and I’ve loved every minute of it. The goodbye’s are hard, but they make room for so many exciting new hello’s. I have so much peace knowing that there is no better place for me to be than in the center of God’s will for me, and for this season he is calling me to Cyprus!
Tomorrow I leave for training in North Carolina and Monday I fly to Cyprus!
You all are so awesome. I can’t believe how blessed I am.
with love, Jo